A Corporate Employee - SellFISH or soldfish

Mehfil mein hazaro ke beech gazal suna ke aakele reh gaya mein hum

Who Kaise ??

Dastaan apni mehbook ki khoobsurati ki sunane gaye

Yeh sunkar Sab apne apne mehboob ki khayalo mein kho gaye

Its been very long that I wrote shayri, the one above is dedicated to all my friends who had a crush in their respective lives, but it was crushed for so many reasons, I too had a crush during my UKG days on my madam but her daughter too was studying in my class, so I dropped….

(You might be wondering, why all the above stuff now – please find the answers below )

The above thought was going in my mind when I was looking at an aquarium in a corporate hospital in Bangalore thinking some thing else, when I was unwell and was waiting for my turn for the doctor to diagnose me ( it often happens that we look at some thing but we think some thing else, the human Pshyce is sometimes mysterious, our senses often conflict with each other, saala dimag ek kehta hai aur dil ek, don’t get confused, you will understand this statement too slowly) until one yellow colored big fish started looking at me, it came closer to the front aquarium glass with its mouth open ( imagine the scene to understand its feel) I became conscious and was feeling sad for the beautiful fish which was caged in the beautiful gold plated aquarium, and was moving only to the length and breadth of the aquarium where as circumfence of fish actually is much wider and longer in sea or an ocean,it could have moved more freely likeME, going from one place to another.

All of a sudden……

I was hearing some sound and the sound was, my name being called, and guess what I see the fish from aquarium was calling me by MY name

“Mr. Dinesh Dodiya, why are you feeling so sad for me, when you yourself are in the same situation, am in”

I responded – “GOSH….., are you speaking to me”

“Ofcourse yes” – the fish replied

I was amused that a fish is speaking to me, rather than informing others, I started a conversation with the fish “ what do you mean by similar situation, look at me, I have been moving from place to place from time to time, I have no boundaries, I have been meeting different people and tasting varieties of food, and look at you, just with few fishes around but never see having fun, you guys just keep moving from one place to another place that too in a small area, you are feeded just one variety of food, that too nutrients, realize the difference dear little fish darling”

( imagine the reaction of fish)

Fish Replied - Lol, lol lol, I would now say, “ Cut the crap dinesh……atleast don’t act before me, let me tell you the similarities between us, might be you don’t have physical boundaries, but you are binded psychologically, Monday to Friday, you have a routine life, from room to your office and office to room, you have been eating food just for survival, might be any variety of food but you always miss home food, for you the taste of Biryani or Maggie is the same, you just want to eat not feel the food, the only thing you feel while eating was the pickle which your mom has packed for you, and regarding friends, do you really feel they are your friends or they are just your colleagues, who just meet you on the weekends, spend lavishly only to kill the time on the weekends, have any of your friend / colleague bunked office because you did bunked only or  just to freak out, the answer is a big NO, go back to your college days, where your friends used to bunk colleges just to have fun, both of us work under beautifully created workplace, my aquarium and your office building, both are beautifully built, but tell me one day when you wanted to stay back in office because you like the place which you used do that in college even there were no classes, dear dinesh, I feel at least am better, atleast I didn’t sold myself to come here, but you sold yourself for the greed called salary, you always have an opportunity go back, but I don’t have that opportunity too”

I was shocked, had no words, I was dumbstruck, felt someone has slapped on the cheek of my soul( the pain of being slapped on soul is much more than your body, it even wont allow you to shed teard, was the FISH right ??

“Where am I, what am I doing here, at least 100 times in a day I think of my family, my home and my friends, but am I even thinking of going back home, might be geographical wise, am moving from one place to another, but thoughts wise, am struck at just one place,

what is the value of the satisfaction am deriving from watching a movie in PVR Gold spending 1000 rs for a ticket in comparison with a movie watched with family at home,

what is the value of satisfaction am getting with the delicious food having in Marriott in comparison to the spicy samosa with chai, where the 30rs bill is paid by pooling funds from friends pockets instead of Platinum Card,

what is the value of a Aussie Lemonade in Coffee Day in comparison to the sweet lassi created by your sister for you,

what is the value of the satisfaction am deriving from spending 1000s rupees on mobile and internet tariff in comparison with the chat I used to have with my friends who used to come to drop me at my place  “

Again I heard my name being called” Dinesh, Mr. Dinesh…….

This time it was doctor, I went into his cabin, got diagnosed, took some medicine and an antibiotic injection, followed up with some rest, when I woke up, I was feeling better ( bitter).

I recalled the whole situation, and realized that it was not the fish which was speaking to me, it was “ME with ME” ( refer to the sentence, I wrote earlier - it happens often that we look at some thing but we think some thing else, the human Pshyce is sometimes mysterious, our senses often conflict with each other, saala dimag ek kehta hai aur dil ek)

Now coming back to shayri, I woud like to ask a question to all of you guys who are staying away from family, think, if you too felt like this when ever you were down for some reason, that life was better at home rather than this Caged world.

But the only reason we stay away is “ SOME REASON “ for few it is financial support to family, for few its o fulfill your parents dreams, for few its to survive and for few…..it could be any thing……

This blog is dedicated to all of my friends who are staying away from family………

Love you Guys