Lock Down and Quarantine - Not new for me !!
Huh, such a long time I have not written any blog but had written a few shayris which I only read and enjoyed :-) I am sure everyone is enjoying the lockdown and spending a good time with your family. Likewise you all, I am not an exception neither exceptional like Dr.Ankitha to go out and enjoy the sound and air pollution which mother earth is healing for us so that we can go again and spoil it ( Dare you to do that again ).
Pretty Sure that everyone is quirked for not able to go anywhere out and those who have gone out, am pretty sure would have stopped surfacing their tashreef at hard bases for few days. While this is all new to you, this is not new for me. I have been quarantined earlier not because I was contagious but because it was considered unsafe for me.
I will use the same emotion for the context, I used to feel during those days to make it a little apt.
I was house arrested, all my moments were monitored, I was never allowed to meet strangers, I had no freedom, my desire to hang out with my friends was curtailed and this happened when I was in my teens. I didn't have a choice to go against anyone but just follow the instructions. I had no friends. I had no goals, I had no vision. I was clueless. (I felt) I was directionless. I was going nowhere from that situation and that lasted 6 months.
I felt futile, all roads towards my ambitions drowned away, I had lost destination.
What next? Well, I was in a situation where I never asked this to myself as I was handcuffed with restrictions. I was instructed only to follow. I used to feel suffocated. I was like why am I still existing? I used to feel "Can I just pick the remote of my life and press Power Button".
Likewise you all now, I used to wait for instructions from the authorities, to understand when will I get freedom.
Well, if you think so, like me, then both of us are wrong.
If you just go back and read the phrase "I will use the same emotion for the context". Well that was what I used to feel that time. But when I look back, I feel, that house arrest was much required for my life then. The reason being, I was kidnapped from Hyd but luckily got escaped most dramatically. (like myself) I was brought back home and was taken care of like a "Touch me not" plant. Everyone was scared to lose me so they have taken every step to protect me from all the possible foreign things. I was safely guarded by my parents' siblings and they gave me a protected and safe environment.
While I used to always think those times that I was house arrested as I was not allowed to go outside. It was young blood where risk-taking lifestyle is very normal but having escaped from them purchased more risk for me as I had known them and I was not good for them so it was very necessary to safeguard me.
I only realized later how important it was for me to be put in a safe environment, protect and police all my activities so that I can come out of that Risk Zone, and lead a happy life. I heard them, of course, undergoing a lot of pain, which is actually a good thing. Similarly to what we are going through. I relate the whole lockdown period to that Kidnap times. Coronavirus as those goons who are trying to nap me and my family that times and government now trying hard to save me. Escaping from Coronavirus is the only option now, and everyone is being safely guarded by the respective governments, so please follow the instructions and keep yourself safe. It is not the time to show your skills but it is the time to strengthen them.
I was clueless, I was directionless, all my ambitions were flushed, my destination was drowned, but the only thing I waited was for "The Time". I knew I will have one day where the gates of my life will be reopened, I will get my wings and I will fly. My parents my siblings who protected me that day now watch me fly. I don't say I have reached the heights but I am flying, and I know I will reach the heights as long as I have patience and my support system. And this time I have more support systems, my parents, my siblings, my extended family, and the torchbearer of my life, the light of my life !!
Love
Dinesh
For those who have asked me earlier to describe my Kidnap story, for sure, I will do, but at the moment the kid is in nap zone ( the moment I feel to write the emotion of kidnap, I will write )
Pretty Sure that everyone is quirked for not able to go anywhere out and those who have gone out, am pretty sure would have stopped surfacing their tashreef at hard bases for few days. While this is all new to you, this is not new for me. I have been quarantined earlier not because I was contagious but because it was considered unsafe for me.
I will use the same emotion for the context, I used to feel during those days to make it a little apt.
I was house arrested, all my moments were monitored, I was never allowed to meet strangers, I had no freedom, my desire to hang out with my friends was curtailed and this happened when I was in my teens. I didn't have a choice to go against anyone but just follow the instructions. I had no friends. I had no goals, I had no vision. I was clueless. (I felt) I was directionless. I was going nowhere from that situation and that lasted 6 months.
I felt futile, all roads towards my ambitions drowned away, I had lost destination.
What next? Well, I was in a situation where I never asked this to myself as I was handcuffed with restrictions. I was instructed only to follow. I used to feel suffocated. I was like why am I still existing? I used to feel "Can I just pick the remote of my life and press Power Button".
Likewise you all now, I used to wait for instructions from the authorities, to understand when will I get freedom.
Well, if you think so, like me, then both of us are wrong.
If you just go back and read the phrase "I will use the same emotion for the context". Well that was what I used to feel that time. But when I look back, I feel, that house arrest was much required for my life then. The reason being, I was kidnapped from Hyd but luckily got escaped most dramatically. (like myself) I was brought back home and was taken care of like a "Touch me not" plant. Everyone was scared to lose me so they have taken every step to protect me from all the possible foreign things. I was safely guarded by my parents' siblings and they gave me a protected and safe environment.
While I used to always think those times that I was house arrested as I was not allowed to go outside. It was young blood where risk-taking lifestyle is very normal but having escaped from them purchased more risk for me as I had known them and I was not good for them so it was very necessary to safeguard me.
I only realized later how important it was for me to be put in a safe environment, protect and police all my activities so that I can come out of that Risk Zone, and lead a happy life. I heard them, of course, undergoing a lot of pain, which is actually a good thing. Similarly to what we are going through. I relate the whole lockdown period to that Kidnap times. Coronavirus as those goons who are trying to nap me and my family that times and government now trying hard to save me. Escaping from Coronavirus is the only option now, and everyone is being safely guarded by the respective governments, so please follow the instructions and keep yourself safe. It is not the time to show your skills but it is the time to strengthen them.
I was clueless, I was directionless, all my ambitions were flushed, my destination was drowned, but the only thing I waited was for "The Time". I knew I will have one day where the gates of my life will be reopened, I will get my wings and I will fly. My parents my siblings who protected me that day now watch me fly. I don't say I have reached the heights but I am flying, and I know I will reach the heights as long as I have patience and my support system. And this time I have more support systems, my parents, my siblings, my extended family, and the torchbearer of my life, the light of my life !!
Love
Dinesh
For those who have asked me earlier to describe my Kidnap story, for sure, I will do, but at the moment the kid is in nap zone ( the moment I feel to write the emotion of kidnap, I will write )
need full story!!
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